Blog Storming
I sort of got tagged by Jim the DudesDad for having provided him with a topic I would like to see him post about so now it is up to me to offer a look inside my brain, unedited version…
First thing coming to my mind is how scary it is to get too personal especially since I am not normally sharing too many personal matters in this blog and all of a sudden changing your blogstyle is supposed to be a big no-no. Anyways, today being Sunday, I hope it doesn´t matter too much.
In exactly 5 weeks I will be 35 plus 1 day and waking up probably with a huge hangover from partying. I always hated to celebrate my b-day, but this year I am actually looking forward to it, my mom is coming over with a friend and I haven´t seen her since October so I am counting down the days…
Thinking of counting down the days, there are another 14 days untill my first”contest” is over and I will be picking the winner, so far it looks like there are going to be very few participants, but that doesn´t matter really, it would have been nice to see a few more opinions, but hey, you can´t have it all. 
Turns out this blog storming is a bit harder than I thought it would be, hat off to you for rambling on, Jim! I just keep going for the delete button, having to stop myself in my tracks and even looking for some words that pop up in other languages which would make this post even harder to read through.
That is a funny thing though, happens to me a lot, especially if I have been switching languages during the day, that I find myself looking for specific words in my mother tongue but I seem to have forgotten them, talking in Dutch to Spanish folks without realizing it, sometimes it feels like losing part of your own identity.
That brings me back to the days when I was still working as a carsalesperson, which I truely hated, having to sell stuf to people who could not really affort the car I was having to sell to them, or selling a car they really wanted to have, knowing they would be better off with another deal.
I suck at selling anyways, I suck at dealing with customers aswell, not because I don´t like dealing with them but because I tend to do too much and end up all low on energy, not being able to set certain limits, knowing when enough is enough. Strange if you come to think that I actually do work online trying to sell something and dealing with “customers” as well.
Looking at the tv as I am writing this, a program called “baby te huur” (baby for rent) where young parents to be are being followed reality style, when taking care for a baby/kid not their own, as some sort of preparation for what to come, and they are given the care over kids of all different ages and stages, pretty cool to see them reflect on things they never thought of before.
I still find it strange everybody can just go ahead and have kids without knowing anything, no preparation, nor training, yet the kids they will be having and raising are there for life. Even if they are fed up with them, even if they really suck at raising kids.
There are a lot of reality shows on Dutch tv, many on parenting aswell, especially when parenting has gone wrong and I am shocked at times to see, how little people think about why their kids are not the “modelkids” they wanted to have, screaming at them, not setting boundaries and just buying stuf all the time to have them shut up, only untill the next minute there is a new toy they want to have. Or they give their kids really crappy food, icecreams, candybars and the lot before having dinner and then they don´t understand how come their kid doesn´t eat…
This is gonna turn into a rant (this wasn´t the best moment for me to blogstorm 
) pretty soon so I better sign off and continue updating wordpress, hoping nothing goes wrong …
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That was pretty cool. Anything can turn into something when you merely let it happen instead of setting out with purpose in mind. For you it nearly turned into a long rant.
Writing in this kind of format goes against all rules of writing and requires turning off the inner critic. From the earliest days of school we are taught to write with purpose and to be clear in expressing our thoughts. We are taught to write in a linear fashion with a beginning, middle and end. To disregard this can create quite the little internal argument but at the same time can be incredibly liberating. To put something like this out for others to read takes a certain amount of courage. I applaud your efforts and would recommend this exercise to any writer as a way to find ideas that are already roaming in your brain.
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I think you have made a great point, turning of the innter critic certainly is very complicated, especially within a blog of this type. Crazy really, because I will possibly never see who my visitors are, yet I do worry what they will think when reading what I write and there was certainly a lot of internal arguing going on, which shows in the text as well.
If visitors come back a few times, they will even start to get to know me a little bit or know what I am about, creating some pattern of expectation, … strange really if you come to think about that, seeing we are all “strangers” to eachother …
Interesting
That we are. Think of it this. I am a guy in the US, you are in Spain, one of the sites I write for is based in Australia. If was not for this glorious little thing called the web we would have never known of each others existence. When I surf I look for the uncommon. One of the reasons I keep coming back and reading your stuff is because you are an uncommon writer in a see of writers trying to copy others. It is what sets you apart and keeps my as a reader interested. In other words…”YOU ROCK!”
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hahaha thanks for that!
people are soon going to think if I am paying you to comment
You are right though, the internet is amazing, I have gotten to know many people through it, some people even in real life, which would not had happened if it wasn´t for internet
People actually do that, I mean pay people to comment. That is blatant douche baggery and shall not be tolerated.
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you are quite right, there are too many paid services around, just look around at digital point or forums where bloggers get together…
It is good to get it out of your system. Here is an unedited comment.
I just got back from a Democrats abroad debate here in France. It was boring. The speaker was boring. no wonder we always lose. How much more boring could you have made it Mr. Speaker. Do you realize that most of the audience were not native speakers? That means all of your idiomatic expressions were not understood. They made you look stupid and your speech incomprehensible. Did you give a speech about coughing or was that what you did when you had nothing to say? You sure coughed a lot, did you have anything to say? No I don’t want to hold the flag for a photo opportunity. I can’t believe you asked that. Save your symbols, i want ideas.
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ouchhhhh going into politics here, and I am walking around these last few days with many thoughts on a big thing going on in my home country right now, about a certain movie made by a PM who wants to prohibit the Koran in the Neths… having my own thoughts about that, and the freedom of speech he is defending with danger to his own life, while dutch government cares more about being politically correct, eventhough a few years ago a filmmakers was already executed for making a same type of movie … but somehow everytime I find myself starting to write about it to post on this blog, I decide to delete the post after having vented my thoughts, believing this just isn´t the right place to do so … (ha, I atleast did some unedited replying now, thanks
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