I don't know about you guys, but I tend to obsess about a single song for about a month, sometimes longer. This month, the song is Like the Movies by Taylor Acorn.
I'm sure you're all thinking the same question: Why this song? Am I going through a break-up? Did someone die? Were you left? And the answer to that is simply, no, no, and no.
The truth is, there's a single line in there that seemed to fit my entire life at the moment. As I have been sick for the better part of a month, and am in the process of moving to my parents house, this one line makes me repeat the song, over and over and over again.
"The world, it just keeps going on while your going through hell". That's the line. And that's how life feels right now. An artist who I found via TikTok got my whole life into one line there. Currently, it just feels like everything is going a million miles an hour. Currently, I feel like trash, but am sitting at my one job, writing this post. Currently, my mental health is pretty much non existent. But yet, I still have to go to work. I still have to get my life together for a move. I still have bills and responsibilities that I have committed to despite the fact that right now, I am going through hell.
And everyone could say that, it's all about perspective and keeping an open mind and blah blah blah. When you can barely get through the day, for one reason or another, that's not helpful. That's not something I want to hear because it makes me feel worse because I know the world doesn't revolve around me. And I know that the Universe doesn't owe me shit. And I know that I am lucky. However, when your going through hell, and it's hard to even breathe, that's not helpful.
The world doesn't stop for anybody or anything. It simply spins regardless. And I think everybody knows this feeling of being almost left behind. Like no matter how hard your trying, you're not keeping up. You're not being seen. You're just falling helplessly, further and further into those depths of hell. And all anybody in those moments want is to pause, and be seen. The rest of the song is honestly quite relatable as well, but to me nothing hits home quite like that single line. But give it a listen, and let me know what you think about it. Does it hit home for you too?
Till next time
CC